BALLET; her passion, her life.

Dance is movement. Movement is life.

Friday 12th Jan

My dearest Qing Hui,

1 week had passed since I started writing this blog haha. And the more I look at this blog, the more I miss you so.

I mean its like school reopened le and everyone is as busy as a bee ya da ya da ya da, chances are you will be having choir or having ballet or both. But i'm still very happy to be able to accompany you home, sneak a peek at you during recess or just give a hi when we do walk pass each other.

Every moment is dear to my heart.

Everytime I walk with you, wait for you, sit with you, talk to you, I cant help but have this growing concern that i'm becoming boring to you. Its like I think I do it too often and you dun seem to be so comfortable with it also.

I guess absence makes the heart grows fonder...

Nearly all the females I know of complain how their boyfrens dun seem to pay attention, whine whine whine etc... Just wanna say I dun wish for that situation to arise :P

ya truely I feel like i'm harassing you when I insist on accompanying you home or to ballet, though sometimes I really feel like a fish out of water when you and tricia starts your conversation... sometimes.

And when I really feel like a wooden block there, I question if its worth all this while to be with you when you have someone who you can communicate more openly by your side. Den I tot, just in case just in case you want me there too.

And maybe your smile makes it all worthwhile again.

Many things are going thru my lil brain right now so its kinda hard to pen down wad i'm trying to say... if you dun understand any part den just skip it haha.

and during one msn conversation when we were talking about commitment, you said you were scared of that... and it really troubled me for quite some time. I know I'm like a bit insecure and quite stupid to doubt you but i'm still quite observant to notice that mayb up till this point you still aint so sure if i'm really the one for you.

ah. now i feel better telling you.

but no matter wad happens, just wanna tell you I only have eyes for ya and yep, I love you a lot.

Loving you till the end of time.

Nic

I know this may sound like a sad post... but just want you to know wad i'm thinking of.

just smile